Today I have had an underlying sadness about me. I'm not depressed or anything, goodness knows I have no right to be depressed at all these days. It's just a deep down sadness that I can't explain with any reasoning.
I don't suppose having to spend the day at the stables has helped, I can't say that I ever feel like I'm one of them. I've come to suspect that they are reacting to me because of either who I am or how I come to be there. By that I mean, are they seeing me as someone with a higher status as them because of who my parents are. I don't do anything that I'm aware of to come across as their superior. I'm also wondering if they view me as some kind of imposter because of how I come to be here? Of course they all know each other so have no reason to go out of their way to adopt someone new into the fold where as I'm out in the cold so a bit of warmth means more to me. Anyway my duties there are done for another week, not that my duties mounted to much more than they did last week but at least this week the sun was shining and it was quite a bit warmer for it.
As I was leaving the stables yard this afternoon the guy who lives in the house there started talking to me. I'd seen him before when I've been with mum and he'd obviously remembered me because after a little chat he passed me one of his turnips over the wall and said to take it home with me. I think it's the most unusual gift anyone has ever given me. anyway mum was pleased with it, as was I really as it was a kind gesture and for sure will come in handy.
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